January 7, 2009
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It is a given that I cannot resist the temptation to blog here. For those that know me all too well, you knew an entry was on the horizon.
Two thousand eight has been the year of my life... thus far. Tumultuous to say the least. I have never had so much "stuff" added to my cookie mix, ever. My favorite macadEmias have been thrown into the gooeyness along with the oh so hated raisin. Grape, I have loved you.. why have you forsaken me?!
So what have I come to rationalize? I've come to an understanding that patience is a virtue. I am getting better at the way I perceive others. I've been allowed to discern the things in my life that I can control versus toying and going crazy over life circumstances beyond my super woman doing. Ultimately, I am at one with my soul. To know that it is not I that holds the pen in hand brings me utter peace. >Angels we have heard on high<
Life experience has come prepackaged with an assortment of emotion... longingness, bliss, heartache, omg-moments, laugh til I cry, reunions, anxiousity, wonderment. you name it, with every fiber of my being, I've felt it.
Being the perfectionist that I am, I've always had a difficult time with "regrets". I am a "shoulda-coulda-woulda-you-idiot" type of gal. But the previous year has taught me that if anything, I've got to deal and overcome those "if only this.. if only that". My future will depend on it.
Perhaps 2009 is the one in which will have the power to break this heart of stone.. perhaps I will fall dangerously in love, perhaps it shall be another year of waiting, or perhaps it shall be the year I die (yes how morbid
Whatever happens, bring it ON! I'm ready. As ever. Let's get this lifetime started ASAP.
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